the road...

I am so happy! I finally found the scene in "What Women Want" that started the wheels turning in my head to begin running. Something about this scene struck a chord in me and I wanted to be the woman featured, her breath, her strength, her shoes pounding the pavement, no judgement, no pretences, just her and the road. I am not quite her yet and dont know if I ever will be or even should be, but I am becoming the runner I am supposed to be.... and the road loves me too.

Here it is:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I5Ct2Rp3HG8

For some reason html is unavailable so just copy and paste into browser, trust me the extra work will be worth it!

Destroyed

This is a picture of my friend and hero. Wow this is really hard. My friend, actually one of my best friends was killed Sunday in Iraq. I try to live life with some semblence of normalcy but can't help but feel so sad and cry all the time. His wake is tomorrow and his funeral is on Sunday. He was such a fun, goofy guy and did not deserve this at all. There are so many things that are so wrong about this that go above and beyond the fact that we lost him. He has to have a closed casket because his body is too destroyed, God that kills me. He was to be promoted to Sgt. upon returning from his mission and he will never know it. He was just married before he left and his wife is completely destroyed. She has a 16 year old son who finally got the Dad he deserved when they married. This woman has already lost a fiance a while back, her dad and brother also died young. It is so damn unfair.

I am terrified that Jake is in Afganistan right now. I want to do something to keep him safe and yet we tried all of it with Eric, and lost him anyway. I know I am rambling, I just am so sad, scared, crushed and the tears do not seem to run out. I loved Eric and now I will never see his goofy smirk again.





Oh and I ran 6.14 miles today for him, a LSD PR for me.

my Grandmother

I went to see my grandmother today. 93 years old and I tell you she looked great! She fell and broke her ankle and so has to be in assisted living for a bit until she can walk on her own again. She showed me her leg and I noticed how smooth her skin still is; her hair is still soft gray and her face, although showing the signs of age, still has a glow. I feel so blessed to come from a long line of women who are strong physically and mentally.

Each of my children hugged her goodbye and she spoke softly to them in their ear. I did not ask them what she said; I will let them keep that for themselves.

I brought her an ice cream sundae and she ate every drop. LOL none of the women in my family have ever been able to turn down ice cream.

I went on a 4 mile run tonight and I ran the whole thing w/o stopping. I ran it for my sister who can't for she is no longer with us; I ran it in honor of my grandmother whom I admire immensely for being who she is so late in life. It was a great run and I feel very much alive tonight

A social run...

Tonight I ran 4 miles with a friend from the beginners Runner's World forums. I was a bit worried about this run because yesterday I worked my legs pretty hard at the gym. The start was tough but then we both seemed to get in a groove and comfortable pace and we cruised the 4 miles, chatting, laughing. We even sprinted to the finish :) It was awesome!

My legs are a bit sore but I truly feel like improvement is right around the corner for me! It feels good to be making runner friends.

Life is good and I am thankful.

Going to the next level...

Well I have finally joined a training group. We meet mon, wed and sat for 3 months with the goal of completing a 5k or 10k at the end. I am hoping to make some new friends and running partners! I am really excited about this and I think it will be very good for me!

It starts July 9th, I'll let you know how it goes!

Anniversary Beach Run

Today I have been married 15 years. My husband is away but I decided that today was not going to be a sad day. So I started off early with a run on the beach. 3.5 miles. I am so thankful that I am running pain free *knock on wood*. It was really beautiful out there today and the only people there were the surfers and runners :) I am working on building a base for when my husband comes home. It would be the greatest joy for me to be able to run with him and actually have him get a workout too.

I am having a hard time not going out too much though. Even as I sit here I have the urge to run again tonight but I know it would be pushing it.

I am sitting here waiting for a delivery from him that is supposed to come today. Come on people!!! Hurry up! lol

new goal

Well as many of you know my husband and I are in the middle of his long deployment. He will be home spring 08. We are able to talk on the phone alot and have decided to spend time together accomplishing some of the goals that are important to us.

One of the goals is running together and training for a major race. Probably the LA marathon because that is where we grew up. It just seems like the right one for us to do. In all this I am painfully aware that my skill is significantly below his. So much so that if he runs with me, he gets no training affect at all.

This leads me to my personal goal. I have signed up for the devine training for the marathon, I will not run it for we want to train for it and run our first one together, but it is an easy plan that can get me in shape enough to train with him when he gets home.

2.5 miles completed today