Well I was on the treadmill today doing 3 miles. Well my power song on my ipod came on and it is the song "I'm Not Okay" by My Chemical Romance. Well most of the time this song gets me totally pumped and I cannot help but to run faster. Today was a bit different. I still went faster, 5.0 speed which is 12 min per mile but this time I thought of my 14 year old that has been giving me a real run for my money lately.
The words go, "I'm not okay, I'm not okay, I'm not okay, you wear me out" Other words too that I cannot recall but I started crying. So here I am on a treadmill, moving my uncoordinated self at a pace that is super fast for me and crying. I thought about the absurditiy of it all and started laughing. So I am running fast (for me), on a treadmill, crying and laughing!!! What am I trying to do kill myself?? Anyhoo, it really was a great release for me. I am struggling so much with things in my life right now with Jake gone and it felt good to yell, "I'm not ok", pushing my body to it's max, and realizing that sometimes not being ok, is OK.
That's it for now,
Robin
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Sweet! I love those runs when you get all emotional, and then feel great when you are finished!
Let it all out. It ain't supposed to be inside you anyway.
We all have issues that we have to deal with.
Pat
Arizona, USA
Awesome!!! I balled my eyes out at mile 9 on Sunday, right in the middle of the race. Just so happened my theme song, the one I talked about in my race report, was blaring in the street just as I was running by. I must have been a sight sobbing, with a big smile on my face, AT MILE 9!!!
I just read your post on RW. Hugs to you. I hope your husband makes it home. It's hard enough dealing with everyday life with them away. When something big happens, it just to much to handle sometimes. I hope everything works out ok for your family.
That is such a powerful statement and your a strong woman to even push through a run in all that's going on.
Thank you so much for your words everyone.
I am hanging in there for my boys, all 3 of them. They are worth it and I do have hope that things will turn around.
You have no idea how much your words mean to me at this time!
Robin
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