As I woke up this morning in the darkness I thought, that is what the winter this year has been for me... darkness. With Jake's deployment, holidays that were anything but joyful, my son getting into trouble, and an acute sense of loneliness. It seems that the light of spring will never come.
And even as I type this, I know it will. School is starting, the troubles with my son will eventually smooth out. Faire season is coming which means weekends will be surrounded by friends. The mornings will even get lighter with the earlier sunrise of spring.
So I wait and try to hold on to the small joys of life until the darkness fades. Like my 4 year old's smile and my beautiful dog, finding a Dr. Seuss book I have not seen since I was a kid and thought was out of print, reading that book to my kids. Appreciating a sense of humor amidst all the hell we are going through. All of these things and more I will hold on to until I see the sunlight of spring.
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Hang in there. Easier said than done. Just be sure if you get to depressed that you talk to someone. After my husband deployed to Iraq in '03, I became depressed and shoulda got help before I did. It's not an easy thing to go through. (((HUGS)))
Just thinking about ya......wanted to make sure you are doing ok :)
Jenn
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