Today I have been married 15 years. My husband is away but I decided that today was not going to be a sad day. So I started off early with a run on the beach. 3.5 miles. I am so thankful that I am running pain free *knock on wood*. It was really beautiful out there today and the only people there were the surfers and runners :) I am working on building a base for when my husband comes home. It would be the greatest joy for me to be able to run with him and actually have him get a workout too.
I am having a hard time not going out too much though. Even as I sit here I have the urge to run again tonight but I know it would be pushing it.
I am sitting here waiting for a delivery from him that is supposed to come today. Come on people!!! Hurry up! lol
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Sunday, June 24, 2007
new goal
Well as many of you know my husband and I are in the middle of his long deployment. He will be home spring 08. We are able to talk on the phone alot and have decided to spend time together accomplishing some of the goals that are important to us.
One of the goals is running together and training for a major race. Probably the LA marathon because that is where we grew up. It just seems like the right one for us to do. In all this I am painfully aware that my skill is significantly below his. So much so that if he runs with me, he gets no training affect at all.
This leads me to my personal goal. I have signed up for the devine training for the marathon, I will not run it for we want to train for it and run our first one together, but it is an easy plan that can get me in shape enough to train with him when he gets home.
2.5 miles completed today
One of the goals is running together and training for a major race. Probably the LA marathon because that is where we grew up. It just seems like the right one for us to do. In all this I am painfully aware that my skill is significantly below his. So much so that if he runs with me, he gets no training affect at all.
This leads me to my personal goal. I have signed up for the devine training for the marathon, I will not run it for we want to train for it and run our first one together, but it is an easy plan that can get me in shape enough to train with him when he gets home.
2.5 miles completed today
Friday, April 27, 2007
1st run back
I went down to the bay this afternoon. It was a beautiful day 75 degrees and I just could not work out inside a gym.
I decided to move for one hour, walking, running, whatever. I had a tough time finding my groove and nothing felt right. Walking too slow. Running too hard. Finally a slow classical song from "Somewhere in Time" came on, some of my favorite music in the world. I decided just to stare at a spot far in front of me and zone out and just run. I got into that meditative state that is so wonderful and rare. Nothing hurt. I know I was going really slow but I did not care.
When I get into that state I always like to write down what my thoughts are because it is in those times that I feel the most alive. I was thinking about how thankful I am that running gives benefits even to beginners, how after a run at 15 min/mile, I will feel the same as that gazelle that just passed me.
I shouldn't still be a beginner as I started running sept. 04 but because of life and inconsistency I am. Maybe I always will be. But the road by the bay does not care, the sport of running does not care and is there for me no matter when I come back to it.
3.81 miles
1 hour
15.44 min/mile
calories: 511
Thanks for reading,
Robin
I decided to move for one hour, walking, running, whatever. I had a tough time finding my groove and nothing felt right. Walking too slow. Running too hard. Finally a slow classical song from "Somewhere in Time" came on, some of my favorite music in the world. I decided just to stare at a spot far in front of me and zone out and just run. I got into that meditative state that is so wonderful and rare. Nothing hurt. I know I was going really slow but I did not care.
When I get into that state I always like to write down what my thoughts are because it is in those times that I feel the most alive. I was thinking about how thankful I am that running gives benefits even to beginners, how after a run at 15 min/mile, I will feel the same as that gazelle that just passed me.
I shouldn't still be a beginner as I started running sept. 04 but because of life and inconsistency I am. Maybe I always will be. But the road by the bay does not care, the sport of running does not care and is there for me no matter when I come back to it.
3.81 miles
1 hour
15.44 min/mile
calories: 511
Thanks for reading,
Robin
getting the bug again
Well I have not visited here in a while. With family stuff, deployment and school I have had much on my plate to keep me from running. But there are those moments when I really miss it. That tingling in my chest, the coolness of sweat on my body when I have cooled down, the feeling of power that I am doing something hard. I have been going to the gym and more and more I find myself on the treadmill, not for long but just enough to get that buzz. Then I visit runnersworld forums and it is all over lol. Those people are so motivating with their commitment to running that I really feel like I should give it another go. Like I have done several times before. I guess that is what life is all about though right. Trying things, getting busy, coming back to the things that mean the most to you.
Anyway, random thoughts I know. Hmm maybe I should go out for a run...
Anyway, random thoughts I know. Hmm maybe I should go out for a run...
Thursday, January 25, 2007
waiting for Spring...
As I woke up this morning in the darkness I thought, that is what the winter this year has been for me... darkness. With Jake's deployment, holidays that were anything but joyful, my son getting into trouble, and an acute sense of loneliness. It seems that the light of spring will never come.
And even as I type this, I know it will. School is starting, the troubles with my son will eventually smooth out. Faire season is coming which means weekends will be surrounded by friends. The mornings will even get lighter with the earlier sunrise of spring.
So I wait and try to hold on to the small joys of life until the darkness fades. Like my 4 year old's smile and my beautiful dog, finding a Dr. Seuss book I have not seen since I was a kid and thought was out of print, reading that book to my kids. Appreciating a sense of humor amidst all the hell we are going through. All of these things and more I will hold on to until I see the sunlight of spring.
And even as I type this, I know it will. School is starting, the troubles with my son will eventually smooth out. Faire season is coming which means weekends will be surrounded by friends. The mornings will even get lighter with the earlier sunrise of spring.
So I wait and try to hold on to the small joys of life until the darkness fades. Like my 4 year old's smile and my beautiful dog, finding a Dr. Seuss book I have not seen since I was a kid and thought was out of print, reading that book to my kids. Appreciating a sense of humor amidst all the hell we are going through. All of these things and more I will hold on to until I see the sunlight of spring.
Tuesday, January 23, 2007
The Waiting Place
"You can get so confused
that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads
at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place... for people just waiting." Dr. Seuss
This is the place I am in right now. Waiting for people to call me back, waiting for appointments, waiting to see what school my son will go to, waiting to run again, waiting for my school to start, waiting for some normalcy in life again, waiting for my husband's deployment to be over.
The book "Oh the Places You'll Go" does not stay in the waiting place though.
"NO!
That's not for you!
Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing." Dr. Seuss
Yes I will escape this endless waiting soon and I cannot wait till I do! Hopefully I am becoming a stronger person and my son is learning some important lessons in the process.
that you'll start in to race
down long wiggled roads
at a break-necking pace
and grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,
headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.
The Waiting Place... for people just waiting." Dr. Seuss
This is the place I am in right now. Waiting for people to call me back, waiting for appointments, waiting to see what school my son will go to, waiting to run again, waiting for my school to start, waiting for some normalcy in life again, waiting for my husband's deployment to be over.
The book "Oh the Places You'll Go" does not stay in the waiting place though.
"NO!
That's not for you!
Somehow you'll escape
all that waiting and staying.
You'll find the bright places
where Boom Bands are playing." Dr. Seuss
Yes I will escape this endless waiting soon and I cannot wait till I do! Hopefully I am becoming a stronger person and my son is learning some important lessons in the process.
Monday, January 22, 2007
What does not kill you...
only makes you stronger!
At least that is what I am hoping. All the sudden my life is about probation officers and court dates. My son got arrested and my husband is deployed. Parenting is harder than I ever thought it would be and I am reeling trying to make sense of all this and figure out what to do.
At the same time that I am figuring all this out, I need to figure out how to destress. Running has not been an option because when they put your kid on house arrest, it is really putting the parent on house arrest too. I think I may try some meditation/yoga because I can do that at home. I used to think that when a kid got in trouble, "where are his parents?" Now I am learning that you can love your kids more than anything, provide a loving stable environment, and they can still get in trouble. I am not sure why this is affecting me so much, maybe because he is my first and I feel a special connection to him even though I don't think he does to me.
I am praying and praying and praying hoping to see a light at the end of this tunnel. I just want life to be normal again!!!
That is all for now, sorry for the downer,
Robin
At least that is what I am hoping. All the sudden my life is about probation officers and court dates. My son got arrested and my husband is deployed. Parenting is harder than I ever thought it would be and I am reeling trying to make sense of all this and figure out what to do.
At the same time that I am figuring all this out, I need to figure out how to destress. Running has not been an option because when they put your kid on house arrest, it is really putting the parent on house arrest too. I think I may try some meditation/yoga because I can do that at home. I used to think that when a kid got in trouble, "where are his parents?" Now I am learning that you can love your kids more than anything, provide a loving stable environment, and they can still get in trouble. I am not sure why this is affecting me so much, maybe because he is my first and I feel a special connection to him even though I don't think he does to me.
I am praying and praying and praying hoping to see a light at the end of this tunnel. I just want life to be normal again!!!
That is all for now, sorry for the downer,
Robin
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